38 weeks. Holy cow. I feel like every week I say I can't believe I am this far. Because well we keep getting farther and farther along. People keep asking "when are you due?" And my answer is now "2 weeks." 2. freaking. weeks. 13 days. 312 hours. 18,720 minutes. (Yes, I just did all that math.) It is just beyond me. I honestly feel like it was just December 27th when we found out that we were going to be parents. I vowed to stop being so anal and anxious about everything and I really think I have come a long way. People around me are noticing it and it means a lot to me when they tell me that. I don't want to be a crazy anxious mom for him. I want to be able to allow him to enjoy things and us to enjoy things with us.
I can't stop thinking about the fall. I pretty much don't know anything about football but I am actually excited to get him dressed up and go to peoples' houses to watch games and have people over to watch Illinois games. NOT Packers games, Dan. ;) I am really excited to take him to the pumpkin patch and taking silly pictures of him sitting in a bunch of pumpkins that he won't ever remember. But it'll be so cute. Because I am sure he will be so cute :)
Here is my picture for the week! Sometimes I feel huge and sometimes I don't. It's very weird. I don't think I have had any contractions which is good because I need to get through a few more weeks of work. I think I am going to be late or scheduled. Which is fine by me. Scheduled would be so much easier considering that we have Shadow. And I want Shadow to be home when Dan comes home by himself so he can bring him a blanket and do all of that business. He may just be spending a lot of time in his crate. Depending on when I go into labor and how available everyone else is to help us out.
*I finally packed a bag for me and for him. Dan threw some stuff in there for himself, too. He had been bothering me for about 2 months to get it done and I never did.
*I started writing things in his journal. Like I said before, I don't know if I'll ever give it to him but it's been helping sort out all of my thoughts right now. Which believe me, there are a lot going on in there.
*I can't stop drinking milk. Before I was pregnant, we would be hard pressed to finish a gallon of milk before its expiration date. Now, we go through probably 2 a week. I eat cereal every day (I hate cereal) and I have probably 2 glasses of milk a day. But it has to be very cold. Hahaha. It will be interesting to see if I keep this up.
*My shoulders are killing me. It's mostly my left shoulder and I have no idea why. Sometimes it almost feels like there is a nerve in there that is being pinched randomly. I keep forgetting to ask the doctor about it.
My thoughts are less jumbled this week. I am kind of trying to just get things done when they come to my mind. I finally finished my thank you notes from the showers (oops.). That took a long time. But at least I got them out before he got here. I was a mess last week (as you can tell from my previous random post) and am doing much better now. I have been cleaning the house a lot because I know if I go into labor and we have to abruptly leave, I don't want to come home from the hospital with him to a messy house. So I am trying to keep up with the cleaning. It's not easy when I can't bend over anymore.
People keep saying to us "get your sleep now!" Dan and I don't really understand this. It's not like you can bank sleep. Put away a few hours here to pull out in September when he decides not to sleep all night. I understand we won't be getting a lot of sleep (if any) when he gets here. But the way I see it, sleep will eventually end so why get lots of it now?
I think we/I have decided on a name. We were down to 2, and I was leaning toward one while Dan was leaning toward the other. He finally said he would be okay with either and we've been calling him by the one name more than the other so I think we are good to go. It's just weird for me to not call him "baby" because I can't put a face to a name, I guess. But soon we will be able to! I am so excited to meet him.