Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Spilled the beans!

Well, the word is out!!

This past weekend we told our siblings. Even though I've been saying the phrase "I'm pregnant" in my head for about 6 weeks now, it still is weird.  I find myself saying "I'm having a baby" more so than "I'm pregnant."  It's kind of like that weird relationship phase when I never wanted to say "fiancee" when Dan and I were engaged.  I thought that by the time we got married, I would be comfortable saying it.  I was wrong.  I never felt okay saying it.  So I am just accepting the fact that I will probably never be comfortable saying "I'm pregnant."

My "morning sickness" (which I am now calling "all the damn time sickness") is still here.  We had our first doctor appointment yesterday and she gave me some advice on how to control it.  She said to eat small meals.  Honestly, I don't think I am going to listen to her. Shocking, I know.  But when I am ready to eat, I eat.  If I miss that window of feeling semi-okay, it's gone.  This afternoon I felt like crap and almost threw up at work (which would've been awkward considering when I puke the entire town can hear me, and my staff and families don't know that I am pregnant).  I forced myself to eat a grilled cheese sandwich and it felt AWESOME. I wanted to make 6 more but had no energy.  Poor Dan has been suffering big time.  I don't cook anymore because I can not stand the sight of meat.  So I took some pork chops out for him and was totally going to cook them up for him but couldn't even touch them while they were in the fridge.  Everyone (well, doctor, nurse, mom, websites) say that I will feel better in my second trimester....I sure hope they know what they're talking about.

The doctor also asked if my prenatal vitamins are causing nausea.  I guess I never thought about it so I am going to not take them for a few days and see if that makes a difference.  I am pretty much willing to try anything at this point.  I feel like I've been hungover for 6 weeks.  And apparently I have about 4-6 weeks left of this awful hangover - I didn't even get to enjoy the fun night of drinking that caused it!!!!

So, back to the doctor appointment.....we had an ultrasound (I don't know why I keep saying we....the baby is in me!) and they took a few pictures and also we heard the heartbeat.  It was weird!  I didn't cry, which wasn't really surprising.  I think it was because I am not a happy crier...also, it looks sort of like a bean/blob, and not a baby.  The doctor explained all the appointments and everything to me.  I made my next one for February 20th.  I am super excited for the 20 week appointment because we get to confirm that there is a girl in there! :)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

The term "morning sickness" is bullshit

So, I spoke too soon. I FEEL LIKE SHIT.  I am in a constant state of nausea.  I have only thrown up once - last Saturday, so thanks for that.  I almost want to throw up because I feel like it will make me feel better.  For about a week and a half all I could eat was Campbell's chicken noodle soup, saltines, and ginger ale.  Then, the sight of soup made me want to vomit.  Now I am eating a lot of cheese.  I am on a veggie sub kick from Subway too that is nice.  It makes me feel healthy.
I started reading "Belly Laughs" by Jenny McCarthy.  Holy my pregnancy.  Everything she went through is exactly what I am going through.  Sickness without throwing up, constipation, constant peeing, feeling like everything I am doing is hurting my blueberry sized baby...it's crazy how on point it is.  The only thing I haven't really felt is mood swings.  Which is weird.  Because I know that's coming.  And I feel horribly for Dan.  It's going to SUCK for him.

Right now the sight of meat (ahhh just typing the word) is making me sick to my stomach.  I tried eating an Italian sausage the other day and I was gagging on it.  It is just so frustrating to me.  In October, I was feeling really nauseous so I went to the doctor.  He said I had some stomach virus and gave me Zofran - and anti nausea medicine. HOLY SHIT I am swearing by this stuff.  I need to request another prescription before my first appointment - which is in 8 days YEAHHHHHHHHHHH!  I can't wait.

I'm going to start taking belly pictures tonight too (kind of a baseline at this point because I haven't gained anything) which I'll post.  No one is reading this though so it's more for myself to document everything.

Here's to week 8! :)

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Week 5

Hello baby! You are 5 weeks old...or something.

I feel like I want to document EVERYTHING because I'll never get a first pregnancy back.  Also, when this child tells me that I hate them and never do anything for them, I'll have ammo :)

This week is going well.  I am just feeling VERY weak in the mornings and at night.  It is 7pm (Daddy is working late) and I am debating getting my bowl of ice cream and heading up to bed.

OH YEAH! We told our parents the great news this past weekend.  Mom mom was in tears and  I immediately told her to shut her mouth because I didn't want Davion to know.  She was excited though.  I think it will become more real when we tell the rest of our family.  We told Dan's dad over the phone and he was super excited, too.  He surprised me and did not say "finally!"   We told them all to keep their mouths shut until we were able to tell our siblings.  We are going to get my brother on Skype and tell him that way because he is in Colorado.  But I know he is going to be beyond excited.  He will be bummed when he finds out it's a girl.  Yes, I am already claiming that it's a girl. :)

I am having a hard time understanding that there is a person growing inside me.  I have an app on our iPad that goes through the pregnancy week by week and shows pictures, (it is the size of a sesame seed now!) but I just can't fathom that something is in there.  It's weird that I am not getting my period, I am really tired (I usually am anyway) and sometimes feel a little yucky in the mornings but it's just weird.  I think it will be ore real when I start showing.  As if I haven't already said "holy shit" enough times since December 27th.